3 Love Poems - painful desire

Ich müsste eigentlich für mein Abi lernen, aber in einer meiner kleinen oder auch großen Pausen ( :P ) habe ich mir das Video zu "It will rain" von Bruno Mars angeschaut. Die Art, wie der Protagonist seine Liebe angeschaut, berührt und geküsst hat, hat mich stark bewegt ( teilweise habe ich mich sehr stark in eine sehr schöne, intime und leider vergangene Zeit erinnert ) und so war es eine fürchterliche Inspiration zu den folgenden 3 Gedichten ( Chenxi ist übrigens mein wahrer Name). 




You are gone, but I can't stop ( Chenxi ; 2012)

All by myself, I lay in my bed,
Cold tears need to be shed.
You are so far away, the miles can't be counted.
And by memories I am haunted.
My head can't stop thinking,
and my wet eyes can't stop blinking.
My heart will not stop beating.
Why did You lie? You were cheating!
Will I ever see You again?
And hug and kiss You again?
Will you ever look into my eyes again?
And laugh and sing with me again?
-No, You won't, right?
You left me forever …
And with You, it's gone, all my light.
And memories precious as jade
will float away like a fluttering feather.

But all I know is:
Now it's all too late.








Confused State of Mind ( Chenxi, 2012)

You were loving me with Your warm eyes,
but you are killing me with Your impossible lies.

You were caressing me with Your tender lips,
but Your cold stare feels like unbearable whips.

You were feeling me with trembling hands,
but who knows where Your locked Heart lands.

You were soaking up my scent with your cute nose,
but are you far away or actually close?

You were telling me Your feelings,
but all i do is looking up to the ceilings,
wondering if You will ever tell me Your true mind.

And You won't,
as you are not here.









Sexual Release (Chenxi 2012) 

Your seducing sight heats me up.
Controlling my desire is tough,
almost impossible to do.
And knowing of what You are able to
I cannot stop lusting for You.

Your endearing whisper strokes my ear.
That You may stop is my only fear.

Your cold fingers caress me,
contrasting my burning heat.

I cannot wait any longer,
and I feel You getting harder.

I want You just like You want me.
So use me, take me and ride me!

My body engulfs Your lust.
Wet and wild, slow and fast.
We merge into one, 
like we were made as one.

Both rubbing, sighing, screaming, 
and finally, unbearably releasing.

Exhausted, we both fall apart,
and i wait again until you get hard.